Day 6, In The Big Smiffy House

That's right! Day 6, and what a day its been! The website has taken its form, and im pleased with the outcome so far, without any website stats, the facebook momentum has engaged 241 people, with almost 150 likes on the page. You guys absolutely smash it, love it!!

I have much grander ideas, but one of the things that's really been helping lately, is just taking small steps. To take my head out of looking too far forward, or too far back... Some days, there's little-to-no distress, and others it's like falling off of a cliff, being caught by a freak wind and slammed into the storm torn waves below. Or is that just me...?

The further along the tapestry of my own timeline I go, the more I open myself up to worrys and anxities - if you ever feel similar, take a break, go for a walk, maybe put sone music on? Nothing racey, upbeat or generally above 130bpm, something nice and mellow. My goto's are a variety of different pieces of music some instrumental cover albums - I LOVE Distant Worlds - The Music from Final Fantasy played by the Royal Philharmonic Orchestra, even if you dont like classical, im convinced there is a track for everyone across these albums! anyway... i digresss, the purpose of these walks is to settle you down (the exercise will do most of the work if you walk briskly - i tend not to give myself a destination, or time, and just walk until my mind isnt buZZZZZZing with what feels like static) so that I can think, and break things down into smaller sections.

One day at a time i find to be a good staple - plan for the day ahead, set small targets - no matter how insignificant that may feel, if you achieve that goal, you have achieved something - and thats a GOOD thing. For example, recently, and not too long before i made this blog, i had some bad news, news i will talk about at a time that is right for me, but it hit me harder than anything has in a long time, and to be fair, in my mind, thats saying something. It was at that moment, i said to myself, if you let this take hold, and its back to square one... I woke that morning, felt the weight of everything looming above ready to slump me back in to the gloom of lifelessness. But, and this is where it gets trickey by confronting that, the night before, i was able to challenge myself - to ACHIEVE that GOAL, the goal that i had set MYSELF. When i went to bed that night, i went to bed thinking about my only goal, the only thing i i needed to concentrate on, it was the first thing i had to do when i woke up. I focussed on looking no further forward, and no further backward, than that point. Sure enough, whilst my mind fiercely strayed, focussing on the one positive thing i had to achieve, i remained anchored and dozed of restlessly. Summary? I awoke, got myself out of bed, showered, dressed and into work early. Goal achieved. Next goal, get to woke without getting sucked in to the aggressive nature of London commuting! - goal achieved (hey.... im nearly at work now) ... the point im trying to make? By focussing on short terms goals you consistently contribute to long term progress, each achievement adding to the last, and failing is OK too, just pay closer attention as to why, did you set the bartoo high (im always guilty of this, im my fantasy driven head i try to think like im superman, but in reality, just like everyone else, I have limits. At the end of the day, we are all fundamentlly 'Clark Kents' or 'Kara Denvers' - there are no Supermans or Supergirls.

Well, that went on a little longer than expected! Ha, never know whats gonna happen wheni start typing at the moment, not knocking that, however!